At 15, Billie Eilish never fathomed that a two-year-old recording of Ocean Eyes would bring her the fame that it did. The tale of Eilish’s rise to stardom after she uploaded ‘Ocean Eyes‘ on SoundCloud, written by her brother and sung when she was thirteen years old, is a secret to nobody. Furthermore, the singer has since then redefined what it means to be a pop star in this generation. From her music style down to her unique dressing sense, Eilish has been a global pop star ever since she turned fifteen. The singer has only added brilliance to her discography ever since Ocean Eyes went viral.

And it did not take very long for Billie Eilish to become the youngest Grammy-winning singer in the big 4 categories. However, in the pursuit of success, it is safe to say that the 21-year-old had to sacrifice a huge part of herself. While most teenagers at 15 and 16 remain confused about what career they want to pursue, Eilish had been there, done that, and was topping the Billboard 100 with Bad Guy. Despite the accolades, she is often found reminiscing about her pre-fame days. And her iconic Vogue get-together with climate activists.

Billie Eilish uses her pre-fame self as an inspiration

Teenagers in teenage dramas and movies have long fought to establish the fact that being a teenager is difficult. And add to that the highly scrutinizing eyes of millions on social media and the difficulty level is already up by ten levels. Therefore, it comes as no surprise that Billie Eilish misses the life she had before she became a spectacle for the entire world. “I look back at who I was, when fewer eyes were on me. I grieve that. I strive to be that kid again,” said the singer. At just 15, the singer had to deal with everything from body to slut shaming by trolls on the Internet.

And the singer over the past year has done several interviews on her journey to accepting herself. In the latest Vogue cover story, where Eilish gathers climate activists to raise climate awareness, the singer was asked: “how she deals with the weight of millions of people’s expectations.” And while many find the light to be a better version of themselves by thinking about her future, Eilish finds both comfort and inspiration in her past.

The Oscar-winning singer said, “I look back at who I was when fewer eyes were on me. I grieve that. I strive to be that kid again.” Now that Eilish has found acceptance within herself, fans are curious as to what her new music is going to sound like.

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